I wish. Unfortunately, the edge of which I speak is not so easily conjured. It is not summoned simply because I want or need an edge. More often than not, it comes as a result of something else. Some external stimuli that suddenly affects us in an extreme way and thereby induces an “edge” – by default. What I need, and my like people* need, is the ability to have an “edge” whenever. Sure that’s a scary thought. But think of the possibilities! Gone are the low paying, creatively stifling jobs, gone is the self-imposed loneliness, gone is the….fear. Success can simply be a way of life.
Try and think of life in terms of having the ability to be “on” at a moment’s notice. No, I’m not talking about being “on” in the way a scott is “on”. ( they don’t have an off switch so the point is irrelevant). I know you know what I’m talking about. The joke that rolls out of your mouth like a gumball out of a candy machine, the sudden onset of physical prowess (“damn, never knew she could throw a football like that”), or perhaps going at it with your boss but leaving his office while he pats you on the back like his best golfing buddy telling you to keep up the good work. There isn’t a person out here who hasn’t experienced it.
The catch is not everyone is aware of what it really is (the state of being “on”) or that it is something one can control, acquire or direct. I suppose it requires a lack of self-consciousness. It requires perhaps scottian certainty peppered with a little rogerian assumptive self-direction. What I can tell you unequivocally is that it involves energy. A certain type of energy. (You are undoubtedly at this point scratching your head, finger poised on the delete button, wondering what the hell I am babbling about – clarks, scotts, rogers etc. Guess I will have to be “on” the next time I write and explain more cogently…….
* clarks You need to visit….