Edge-Ing Into A Heart Shaped World

Fortitude and Focus. My friends for the day. They must be. They will be. I will court them, courtesy of Chris Isaak. Last week, a friend of mine posted the Wicked Game music vid on FB. It was Chris’s 1990 huge hit single. Yo! David Lynch fans! Remember the movie Wild at Heart?

It also turned out to be the “breakup song” an ex had for me. I know, right?! I never knew that guys had those things – songs for their girlfriends, wanna be girlfriends, and soon to be ex girlfriends.

We’d been in a relationship for almost a year although we knew each other casually from around town for longer than that. I first met him, which is to say talked with him more than “hello”, when I worked in the local office supply store.

“E” was a musician and artist. He would occaisionally stop in for art supplies and such. Very quiet, it never went beyond “hello” and “thank you” (he’s a clark. go figure lol). Until one day. I was wearing a black, button down cardigan sweater. At the left top, where a lapel would be if it had one, I wore an MSG button. Black background, red and white. MSG logo, flying V guitar and all.

On this particular day, “E” looks at me and asks: “what does MSG stand for?” (as if he didn’t already know!). I told him. That seemed to impress him. Or something. I stupidly gushed about Michael being only the best guitar player on the planet, how he’d played with the Scorpions when he was a kid, blah, blah, blah. Man. I am so rambling this morning. Where’s the Focus?!

It’s sunny today. I see it through the closed slats of the blinds. Warming. Bright. It’s there. We’ve all been in a deep freeze this last week so today’s projected temperature here, 41 degrees, will seem like, well, summer! Navigating winter weather – single digit wind chills, snow, slush, the usual winter mess….does require….hey! “fortitude and focus“. So let me find some F&F and get to some TToT thanking!!

1) I am extremely thankful that I made it to work last Monday without incident. On a good day, my commute takes at least an hour, a little more. Last Monday? 3.5 hours. Untreated highways and more snow than was predicted makes for a jammed commute in the DC Metro area. Kristi will tell you! (Fortitude and Focus)

2) Having a job that allows me, on that very same day, to leave earlier than usual in order to arrive safely back home without having to spend the same number of hours on the return journey.

3) Speaking of work on the Monday with the commute from hell – I’m thankful for my co-worker in our VAB office who, knowing I was leaving a little earlier than normal, got me her work as quickly as possible. We both got done what needed to get done for that day. Hurray for cooperation! (Fortitude and Focus)

4) The Wakefield Doctrine Saturday Night Drive Call In Show. Technically, last week’s show doesn’t qualify for this week’s TToT but I have special dispensation from the Seven Guard Virgins to use it! Cynthia Calhoun of Pictimilitude fame called in. Unofficially, her husband was also in on the call by proxy. They were both driving back from birthday celebration dinners with family. Good call. Fun and informative.

5) Cynthia. Did I mention her? Yeah, up there in #4. This counts as a separate stand alone Ten Things because….Cynthia never fails to generate new insights into this whole personal reality/worldview stuff. And she is great fun! What are Saturday nights for? Fun! (And self-development via interaction with and engaging the world!! for all us clarks lol)

6) Damn, this is difficult. I know during the week there have been things to be grateful for, but where are they hiding? Hey! Wait a minute. Yesterday!!! My team, the New England Patriots (sorry Sandy. honest:) ) won the playoff game!

7) Family and Friends. I have them. And I am grateful.

8) I don’t think this is frivolous….I’m grateful that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is now a little lighter, a little later. Come on Daylight Savings Time!

9) Music. Oh yeah. This is always on my list. I would be lost without it. And maybe lost with it LOL. Let me explain. As you know, my commute is minimum 1 hour+. Last Thursday, almost 3/4 of the way home, I’m traveling on the FFX Co. Parkway. 2 lanes each direction, it’s the “home stretch”. Radio is on. In these last few weeks I’ve a new favorite, set on repeat, in my head, song. Something Different by Godsmack. As I was driving along, singing along, I was hearing certain lyrics as if for the first time. A couple of week ago I was going to write a post featuring this song. Well, I didn’t write it. So of course, on this night, driving, with no writing utensil, no opportunity to use said utensil and no recording device handy, I watched the words, thoughts, sentences of a post pass in and out of my head like the highway signs I’d been passing for the last hour. Right after Something Different came a long time favorite, close to my heart song from one of my favorite bands. The song? Bulls On Parade. Oh man. I was so there. Of course I started “select singing” (certain phrases, words) along. Just prior to the song ending, I glanced at the clock on the radio. 7:07 pm. Nothing unusual about the time. EXCEPT! I couldn’t quite remember driving for the entire length of the song LOL. Let me say, in the spirit of full disclosure that sure, I had my eyes on the road. Stopped at traffic lights. But I “went” somewhere else. LOL Still amazes, frightens and makes me laugh when that happens. Time suspension/cessation. Cool.

10) Another day.

Enjoy this day. It is the only day. As always, thank you for spending a little time at the Edge.

P.S. Completely forgot, didn’t even have, a music vid selected for today. Quick!

16 thoughts on “Edge-Ing Into A Heart Shaped World

  1. ivy January 11, 2015 / 1:00 pm

    That whole time suspension thing is rather bizarre yes? Fun read! I like the blast from the past picturing you rambling at some cute clark. oh, hey havent seen you at my new spot yet… so you may not recognize this as me but hey I will just say, FRIST!


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 1:17 pm

      Yes! Hey thanks! No, not yet. I’m slow today. But….I do recognize you:)
      And you are, pretty much all the time, FRIST!!!
      Will be along soon….


  2. lrconsiderer January 11, 2015 / 1:43 pm

    I’m always impressed at how damn thankful you manage to be for another day. I know I should be, but most of the time it seems to commonplace or just drudgish to bear and I don’t think of it in those terms!

    That zoning out while musicking…yeah. Happens sometimes. But glad you enjoyed the songs 🙂

    Thank goodness your work are sensible.


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 2:17 pm

      A new perspective for you this new year, perhaps?! Nothing commonplace about waking up each day my friend:)

      Ah. I did. I sure did.

      Yes. Sensibility should prevail.

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  3. Lisa @ The Meaning of Me January 11, 2015 / 1:55 pm

    Zoning out to music is normal, right? I always thought so!
    I am right there with you rooting on the daylight. I was ecstatic when we came home last evening and it was still just barely light at 5:30. Minute by minute that daylight returns! Been deep frozen here, too. Winter is far from my favorite. Yes, it’s pretty and all, but no.
    Your Monday commute sounds like absolute hell – glad you go the opportunity to get back early.
    Love Christ Isaak. Most people make a face when they hear that. I don’t care. Wicked Game was awesome.
    Have a great week!


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 2:21 pm

      Of course it is, Lisa:)! Isn’t it great! About the same here, still an inkling of light at 5:30.
      Glad you suffer the “face makers” lol. Chris is a very talented guy. I barely remember he had a show on TV…


  4. Kristi January 11, 2015 / 1:57 pm

    Wow–that was quite the commute you had on Monday! Glad the return trip wasn’t so long.


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 2:24 pm

      It was Kristi. When the speedometer doesn’t even register because you’re going that slow, yeah, that was quite a commute lol.
      Enjoyed the return trip much more:)


  5. fangboner1 January 11, 2015 / 4:36 pm

    3.5 hour drive to work.So you got there and had lunch and turned around and went home?

    Family, friends music another day. the changing light…not frivolous at all.


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 5:08 pm

      No lunch. Just worked straight through. Deadlines are deadlines.

      No ma’am. Not at all:)


  6. Kristi Campbell - findingninee January 11, 2015 / 7:55 pm

    Yeah, the commutes around here stink even in decent weather. Last week was a MESS! They didn’t close school on Tuesday and there were busses stuck for hours in ditches. So of course they cancelled it on Thursday because it was cold. Lame. OOOH to good awesome music and long ago remembered conversations with hot Clarks. I’m stuck these days on Bastille’s Bad Blood – sooo good.


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 10:12 pm

      I was glad to have been in a “whatever” mood. Never got over 10 mph on Rt. 28. Figured I’d get there eventually and as long as it was in one piece, I would be happy:)
      More than a couple of school systems goofed up on that one!
      He was hot. He was cool. But we were 2 clarks. Odds were against us:)
      Bastille – Bad Blood is an odd vid. The song is catchy though. Will check out some of their other songs. Thanks Kristi! Love hearing new bands!!


  7. pictimilitude January 11, 2015 / 8:34 pm

    I made it to the TTot late…so I just published something on stuff that’s been going on. I still managed to squeeze in some gratefuls, lol. Sometimes it is a little hard when you’ve been writing about them for awhile. Hehe.
    I hope your week is warmer and that we sail through winter! Come on spring! 😀


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 11, 2015 / 10:17 pm

      Officially, you have until midnight tonight to post. But didn’t you link up?
      Freezing rain for the morning commute but otherwise I think the temps will be more the norm.
      Spring is but weeks away, right? LOL


  8. pictimilitude January 12, 2015 / 9:14 pm

    Sweet Denise! I found a couple of your comments that got caught in my website’s filters. You know I just LOVE YOU! I have responded and got everything straightened out, me thinks. I’m so thankful for you. You just bring happy tears to my eyes! xox


    • GirlieOnTheEdge January 13, 2015 / 5:41 am

      And I, you:) Glad all is as it should be! As long as they are happy, it’s all-right:D


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