Lessons, Learning, Peeking Around the Edge

Sunday. Morning. Been up for a coupla hours. Morning has always been a treasure left undiscovered. Eagerly anticipated as it was the one part of the day I could completely indulge. The space between each line uncharted territory beckoning to be discovered/revealed.  When did it stop being the most enjoyable part of my day? When did sitting comfortably, pad and pen in hand, (replaced now with white screen and keyboard) cease to be that solitary walk along the deserted beach, scoping tide washed sand for shells and sea glass and driftwood?

Who do I have to thank for sitting me down, right now and asking? Christina Perri? Pinterest for sending me links that might interest me? That Pinterest shared with me GirlieOnTheEdge’s post “Of Metal and Mayhem” from 2 years ago featuring Ms. Perri singing “Jar of Hearts” is no coincidence (actually it is but let’s roll with it). Whatever the cue that illicits emotional content, I believe I owe it to myself to follow the trail. Cueing the song for the 4th time, chorus now indelibly etched into my brain for the day.

Reminders. How important are they? Very, yes? Of course. Without them we might miss that important drs. appointment or job interview or teacher parent meeting. Daily reminders. We all need them. I don’t want to talk about those reminders though. I want to explore the “holyshitIforgotabouttheohyeah,can’tbelieveIforgotIcouldIforget” reminders. Life shit. Get where I’m going? Inside of your head, reflective, self assessing, time to review, pull down the shade, find a comfy chair and…review. Remember. Remember the stuff you told yourself not to forget.

As on most Saturday nights, I call into the Wakefield Doctrine Saturday Night Call in Show. Typically, especially these last couple of years, it’s Clark (your host), myself and more recently and consistenly, Cynthia. Now wait a darn minute! Nuh, huh…it is too very enjoyable and humorfilled and….informative.  When it’s only us clarks, there is much identification going on, many reveals and “aha’s” and in general “no shits!” and yes, it can be a wild time lol. Who says a three way conversation among clarks is boring. It’s not always about the Doctrine ya know. Well, actually how can it not be?

As I suspected, I’ve veered a bit off course. Retrospection, if done properly can be a valuable tool. Recollection without the indulgence of feeling bad, can be a valuable tool. Remembering to remember can be a valuable tool. Thanks to Clark last night, I remembered some things that naturally I’d forgotten. Funny, I made a comment about being in denial (the usual life shit, where am I, what am I, why, why not) and Clark pointed out that when an individual is in a state of denial, they are not consciously aware they’re in denial. Example? If someone sees white, when it is black. They see only white. They do not know it is black because for that person, it is white. So how much of what I see or don’t see has it’s roots embedded in denial? How can I know I’m in a state of denial? Does that imply someone, other than myself, should be telling me how it really is? How’s that for a big ole can of squirming, radioactive worms?! LOL

I’m fairly certain I’ve lost most folks. In fact, I may have even lost the clarks! It’s a rambling, self indulgent kinda day today – it’s a reminder today. To look so that I can see without prejudice, that which is in front of me, surrounding me. What is it I refuse to see? Cannot recognize? When will I know, how can I know those times I’m in denial? Can I rescue my own self? Gee, thank you brother. You’ve always got my back 😀

One of my favorite TV characters, a clark, was all about finding the truth. He insisted the “truth was out there”.  Am I ready for the truth? I know this clip will totally resonate with my people. Here’s to a TToT weekend for yes, this is a TToT post. The thankfuls? They’re out there. Just have to find them.



  1. Sageleaf · December 18, 2016

    TWO posts in a weekend! YES!! I have a CD with the theme music for X-Files. Mulder. I could so identify with that dude. I always appreciated him. But watching that video, I GOTTA KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT! LOL.
    Retrospection. Introspection. Reflection. Contemplation. It’s what we clarks do.
    I plan to call in on Christmas Eve. Last night I needed to get an art project done and then a pre-birthday request to watch another episode of House of Cards from Juanito. 🙂
    Sending you hugs on this stormy Sunday. We just got back from a rainy walk. 😀


    • GirlieOnTheEdge · December 18, 2016

      I know! What the heck is that all about? lol
      One of my favorite series. What a clark Fox was, huh? 😀
      Yup. What we do for sure. Yay! Hope you are able to. Many demands on that day from our rogers 🙂
      I hope John had a good birthday today. Rainy walks can be nice 🙂
      Thanks for the hugs. Save a couple for your own self!!


  2. Pat B · December 19, 2016

    X-Files was a show I wished hadn’t come to an end. You have covered a lot of bases in this post, but I think a person needs “a self-indulgent kinda day” sometimes, like a vacation, but shorter. “Can I rescue my own self?”
    Well that opens up a whole other discussion and could probably transpire on a number of different venues I think.


    • GirlieOnTheEdge · December 19, 2016

      Same here. I loved that show. Oh yes. The “me” days are necessary at times.
      100K question, isn’t it? 🙂
      Oh, yes, for sure. Depends on the context. One of those yes and no questions!


  3. valj2750 · December 19, 2016

    I’m in denial about a lot of things, and I know it. But it is safer there in my pretend world. ha, ha!


  4. Lizzi · December 20, 2016

    I always think that – sometimes the things life asks of us is like asking us to act as if the sky is orange with blue stripes, but…


    • GirlieOnTheEdge · December 20, 2016



      • Lizzi · December 21, 2016

        I don’t know how we do that. It seems a bizarre and impossible request.


        • GirlieOnTheEdge · December 22, 2016

          The determination of a clark…is determined by the will…of a clark.

          Liked by 1 person

        • Lizzi · December 22, 2016

          Ain’t that just the way. Mixed blessing, that.


        • GirlieOnTheEdge · December 23, 2016

          The will. Can accomplish anything.

          Liked by 1 person

        • Lizzi · December 23, 2016

          Yes…whether good or bad, though, remains to be seen. Always.


  5. Kristi · December 21, 2016

    The X-Files was one of my favorite shows, too.


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